There was a time when I thought that who I was was what I did. I thought that money made me happy and that life was a destination at station 401K. After I broke my neck and had to learn how to walk and talk and chew gum all over again, I realized that the Holy Grail of life was not something I could buy, sell or hold, contrary to whatever Wall Street or Madison Avenue would have me believe.
I now know that the Holy Grail is something I feel, and I call it love. I also learned that pain is the result of damaging my body, but suffering was an option created in my mind.
Along the journey I now refer to as The Way, I discovered that confidence was an act of thinking but courage was an act of doing. Without confidence I believed in nothing, but without courage I achieved little.
Although confidence was the precursor to courage, I needed both – confidence enabled me to care to dream and courage inspired me to dare to dream.
Yet caring to dream and daring to dream was insufficient; I had to fight for my dreams. As I fought, I prayed for courage and instead of finding courage, I discovered another devious aspect to reality. I realized that God doesn’t have pixie dust and She couldn’t make me courageous until I faced the dragons.
There were days when nothing seemed to go right. The time my laundry was stuck in the cleaners for a month, my website crashed at the worst possible time, or the day I lost my job. But the Creator worked in mysterious ways, for my trip to the laundry saved me fifty dollars, my dead website awakened me to a worn out server just in time, and the ending of one career opened me to pursue my hearts desire – writing.
Because of this, I learned that there were no accidents, and coincidences were actually synchronicities pointing me on my soul path. I discovered that goose bumps were in reality “truth-bumps”. I concluded that despite my clumsy attempts, I was not really in control and when I let go, magic happened – and I was always being guided and protected.
Along The Way, I discovered great illusions and they set me free. The left-brained nuclear engineer realized that I was pure energy, photons, a light being. The submariner realized my brain was like my sonar system, capable of pinging thoughts around the world, affecting everyone’s course and speed.
I laughed when I discovered God didn’t have a watch, matter was not solid, and time was not linear. It proved that death was an illusion, I am an eternal light being, and I am a part of you, you are a part of me, and we are one.
Finally, I discovered a religion called science, and a science called religion that were two sides of the same coin. I now believe that scientists are people of faith, we are all agents of God, and the sixth sense is more than a movie.