Self is inward. It is private. Self is your deepest dreams and greatest aspirations. It is your assets, vulnerabilities, body, mind and spirit. It’s your truth; what you want, who you are and who you want to be.
I don’t think I ever thought about self as its own entity. I’ve thought about self-confidence, the times in my life when I’ve had it and times when I’ve needed it. I’ve thought about words like selfish and selfless, but never about self as separate. Then I began my journey of self-discovery.
A difficult divorce forced me to acknowledge that while I was living my perfect, pretty, married life – catering to everyone else – I abandoned me.
This realization was devastating. I didn’t know who I was, what I wanted or even who I wanted to be. Looking back I see that losing myself in that way prompted the change that was absolutely necessary to getting back to my true self. But back then I just felt alone, wounded and raw.
While trying to survive the changes in my life I went through different stages of healing. This journey of self discovery has been the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I have come to understand that the pain, the struggles, the challenges and sorrows have the greatest impact on our desire for change, awareness, and intent.
The most difficult times in my life were terribly sad and challenging but I am who I am because of them and I wouldn’t be here without their truths. My own truth is that I wasn’t truthful to myself about what I wanted and what I needed. When I finally took responsibility for that I felt relieved, and could then began to forgive myself for the years that I hid myself away. That was when I made this vow to myself:
My path will be filled with success and failures.
I accept them all as they pave my way.
My successes fuel and accelerate my journey. I am grateful and ready for more.
My failures teach me much about who I am. I am thankful for them as they teach me vital lessons.
I vow to listen to me.
The deepest part of me.
Not to be swayed by those who don’t understand or those who do not see as I do.
I vow to make me important.
I vow to be the best me.
The purest, most honest, truthful me.
I vow to be patient, understanding and supportive of me.
I vow to strive to be all that I can be.
To work for and reach every dream.
To appreciate every step and acknowledge that the path IS the experience.
When a dream comes true I vow to dream bigger.
I vow to be grateful for everything in my life.
I vow to love me. Support me. Empower me.
Trust in your path. Trust that you are on your journey for a reason.