Over the years, I have both loathed and loved my body. I have found that loving my body is much, much better. So I made a decision to love my body, not in spite of imagined flaws or ways that it deviates from the media ideal of what a body should look like, but rather because it is mine and it is perfect.
I spent decades putting my life on hold—waiting to achieve an acceptably, socially, skinny body. I didn’t lose any weight (at least not permanently). All I lost was a few decades. So one day I made a choice. I stopped waiting around for the perfect body and started acting as if I already had the perfect body.
Everything I dreamed that I would do when I was thin, I just went and did those things. It made my life much scarier. There is no risk in a life delayed—in a life not lived. My life was perfect in potentia. But it wasn’t juicy. It wasn’t electric. It wasn’t real. So I learned to jump into life with both pudgy feet. Since then, my life has been immeasurably better.
I also spent a great deal of my life wondering what other people were thinking about me. But at some point I realized that I didn’t really know what people were thinking about me. I wasn’t psychic. I was imagining in my own head what was in their heads. So one day I decided that I might as well imagine that they think I’m totally awesome. Why not? It’s my imagination. I might as well imagine something that makes me feel good and powerful. I might as well imagine something that will help me be a positive force in the world.
For many years, I believed that exercise would make me look like a supermodel. It would make me thin and tan, and sweat would sheen and glisten on my muscles. Exercise did not do that for me. So for a while, I was really kind of mad about that. Until I realized that exercise made me feel better and sleep better. I was in a better mood. I felt better about myself. I felt sexy.
Since then, I have decided that exercise is one of the most awesome things on earth, and that I want to share it with everyBODY. I help people understand what is really wonderful about exercise and help them find the fun in fitness. Because in every life, there comes a day where you have to decide whether to exercise or watch TV. If your exercise routine is boring, painful, or based on punishment, TV WILL WIN.
So find your exercise mojo. Do it out of love for yourself. Your life will be so much better for it.